Too good?

So today I'm sitting back and analyzing where my life is now. I have a new job, new car, new place, and dare I even toy with the idea... A new "interest."

All I have ever wanted from a partner is someone who listens, someone who laughs, someone affectionate. I have wanted someone to treat me like a queen. Treat me like I was the most beautiful woman in the world. Treat me like I'm the only one who matters. I want someone who wants to hold my hand, who wants to steal little kisses every chance they get. I want that type of romance!!

Instead I have picked the guy who is distant, the guy who doesn't want to be seen with me. The guy who won't introduce me as his girlfriend. The guy who makes me doubt how beautiful I am inside and out.

Today I sit wonder will I find this perfect guy? I have found someone who does all these things and I still keep them at arms reach because I'm afraid to be happy. I'm afraid it will end when I give in to my feelings. I'm afraid I over think everything and will lose it all because of this. I'm just afraid.

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Today...a new beginning.... again.

Today I started a new job. I've been at my other current job for about 11 and a half years. I had become so comfortable working for the same company all these years, I started to think I'd never leave. Well I haven't left yet, but I did find a new full-time job. I now have an 8-5, M-F job. WOW! Can you believe it?! Today was my first day. I had all the mixed emotions; confusion, excitement, nervousness. I had an over-all good first day of work. I do believe I'm going to enjoy having a cubicle. The whole atmosphere reminded me of the movie Office Space. I look forward to working for this new job. I don't know much now, but look out!! A new beginning starts now!

A new chapter!

Yesterday was the start of a new chapter in my life. The past few years I have lived with a roommate. Going from living alone to living with a roommate is definitely an eye opener. Sharing your living space, parking spots, food... sometimes it can be a little overwhelming. There were a few good things such as sharing the bills and having someone around.
As of yesterday I signed the lease on my very own apartment.... again! So now its back to living on my own and having my own space, my own privacy and yes, my own bills! I can't wait for this move to happen, It won't actually happen until mid-September, and start this new adventure!!

The "new" ME starts NOW!

I've been following a blog recently about a girl's struggle and success in weight loss. In the blog Rev +Chick Renee talks about what motivates her to lose weight and her previous battles with weight loss. After reading one of her first blogs addressing her battle, I saw myself in the blog. It was like it was written about ME! The first time I read it, and I've read this blog several times, I thought, "You know what... I'm gonna change too!" Well I didn't. I basically did the same thing for the past few months and of course the results are the same. If I wanted a piece of cake, I ate it. If I wanted Pizza, I ate that too. The gym became a long lost friend.
Well today I am starting fresh. Today is a new day! So I'm taking Renee's lead and all of her success and I'm going to apply it to my life! I'm gonna try it, I'm gonna shape up, I'm gonna get fit! Mainly for health, but also for my self-confidence which has been lacking this past month.
So here it goes. It starts now! Wish me luck!

Why save it?

Last Christmas my step-mom gave me some very nice soap in a gift basket filled with other cool goodies. One thing she told me was to make sure I used it and didn't save it for that special occasion that may never come. I started thinking about all the things I have saved in the past. Things I never got to wear, never go to smell, never got to enjoy!

I started going through my boxes of "keeper junk" and found old bottles of perfume, expensive make-up, candles, and even soap! These were things I had been saving for that special moment; and that moment never arrived.

Since Christmas I have made sure to use the soap, use the expensive make-up everyday, wear the "going-out" clothes whenever I want, and spray the perfume that makes me feel sexy! I took for granted these little pleasures and now I'm trying my best to enjoy them.

You never know what will happen that will prevent you from enjoy the small things, so I ask, "Why save it?"

Today... July 4th...It's been a while!

Wow! I hadn't realized how long it has been since I've actually used this blog. 2010!! I will definitely try to post more now that I have a little more time on my hands.

Since I last posted I've taken on a second job. A second job?! Yes! Last October I was looking for ways to make some extra Christmas money. I would go shopping and see who was hiring, but never really made an effort to apply anywhere. While shopping at Michael's one morning I ran into an old co-worker who currently worked there! She asked how I was doing and I mentioned my search for extra money. She told me they were hiring and would put in a good word. As fate would have it her manager walked by just then and I got an introduction. I was hired two days later!! What was to be only a Christmas job has turned out to be a second job eight months later. I love the people I work with and my creative juices have been n constant flow!!

Working at a craft store has opened my eyes to so many new things. My latest guilty pleasure has become jewelry making! I am just starting out, but what I've made so far has been awesome! Not to toot my own horn or anything.... ok TOOT TOOT! I love the idea of being able to make jewelry that I like, jewelry that fits MY style.

So here's to free time and being creative!!

My new passion.